In 2011, in the midst of a drawn out personal-romantic crisis, I had enough of my self-judgment-criticizing mind. I wanted to be released of the emotional burden and over analyzing my decisions and regrets. After traveling to Thailand and developing curiosity towards Buddhism I finally realized how it might help me and started to practice meditation.

After a few short months of daily practice I've had an experience of 10 minutes of total bliss. Everything was peaceful, flowing, working in harmony, the world was lighter and my thought stream just stopped. I then realized how powerful and truthful the Buddhist way was for me and that I can actually not be controlled by my own mind.

After 6 months I could notice a distinct change in myself and who I used to be.

I had less self judgment, less criticizing others, more at peace with my decisions, and more motivated and open to new experiences. It proved to me how powerful personal transformation can be if done right.

Parts of me began to heal, other parts dropped off, and I started to get a glimpse of a spiritual dimension and understanding that were missing in my life. Less than a year later I met my wife.

My desire to explore more of the spiritual and mystic realm grew stronger and during my first ayahuasca session. I got a glimpse into the immense magnitude of the spirit and how it is interwoven into nature and reality. It was both an amazing but difficult experience and it made me decide to practice a more established Buddhist meditation with a group and a teacher. I then began my practice with the Kwan Um School of Zen.

This helped me to gain a stronger emotional center, spiritual grounding and has opened my eyes to additional glimpses of bliss and mystical experiences.

Meanwhile, I was happily married, went up my career path in marketing but things still didn’t feel like they were in the right place in terms of who I want to be. I had ideas of going back to school to train as a therapist but I didn’t have the courage to start all over again. I guess I had to learn on my own flesh the methods that I use today to heal others.

I didn’t understand and trust the signs and I was attached  to my comfort zone in a high tech company.

To develop more personally, I chose to go to somatic psychotherapy treatment. This helped me to cleanse some of my own emotional baggage before my first son was born. I chose this modality because it fits my world view about the body-mind connection and has energy and eastern philosophy aspects to it. Going through somatic therapy I could experience how sensations in the body would spark lost memories, and bring forth emotional release faster and stronger than regular talk therapy would.

But the deepest and toughest lessons came after my first son was born.

In this period my relationship and personal hardships were so great, that sometimes I wished I would just disappear or that a chronic illness would come and put everything into perspective. Nothing that I’ve learned so far seemed to work or make a difference in my reality and it made me go looking for more methods and ways to integrate what I knew to be true but could still not bring into my reality.

This forced me to continue on the path, go back to therapy and help myself feel loving and open again.

I went to different workshops in different modalities from breathwork, Osho style meditations, Buddhist retreats and other mixture of coaching and men circles, but I still didn’t find a method that would combine everything I know and experience in a harmonic way that would produce a lasting healing effect.

And since I hadn’t found it yet, I kept my comfortable way of life without the courage to actually go beyond and follow my intuition. Inspiration indeed came eventually in the form of Shamanic Journeying.

Going to my first session I was hoping to look for a way to connect to my intuition better. I was very skeptical about communicating with spiritual guides or such entities. But I was willing to give it a try because I was still seeking for more. During my first two workshops I was amazed to receive more signs and symbols from entities that revealed their identity to me and offered help.

This could sound radical but the signs they showed me indeed manifested in reality afterwards so I knew I couldn’t have  made them up. As I practiced more, I was able to ask and receive more signs which manifested until a point where I felt confident enough to ask what was to be my next step in the path. The answer was clear: Energy Healing.

Six months afterwards I was enrolled in the first year of energy healing class in Karkur College while keeping my shamanic journey training with Itzhak Beery during Covid times. I was finally on to something that would steer my life in a new direction.

Yes, In the beginning I was still a bit skeptical of chakras, crystals, channeling and energy but slowly with my own personal experience and the help of my teachers, I was able to feel the effects of the sessions I took and witness the effect of the healing I offered in my training.

Since I started doing energy and shamanic work, I have explored different aspects of it, from spiritual guidance, healing trauma, to spiritual hygiene and grounding. During energy healing sessions I experienced profound anger and sadness that were hidden in me, released with surprising intensity. I also witnessed these healing effects on others in workshops I’ve attended. And I can proudly say that the skeptic in me is gone and I just know from direct experience that it works.

Lastly, before moving to Spain I asked my spirit guide: Who would be my next teacher? Since I was looking to continue to train and gain experience. I saw a name that seemed like Matthew or Matt and I kept on looking for that person in reality. A few months after I met my current teacher Methe Sejlund.

This and other incredible guidance manifestations with me and others keep me amazed and surprised by the power of our spiritual connection.

Today, I use the energy and shamanic methods with a basis of Buddhist world view to work with the spirit, mind, emotions and body. I’m choosing to work only with traditional methods that helped me heal myself.